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Your Blogging Type Is Thoughtful and Considerate

You're a well liked, though underrated, blogger. You have a heart of gold, and are likely to blog for a cause. You're a peaceful blogger - no drama for you! A good listener and friend, you tend to leave thoughtful comments for others.

What's Your Blogging Personality?

I especially loved the 'well liked, though underrated blogger' part... Hee hee hee !!

I also did the How-Sagittarian-are-you? Quiz and scored a whopping 27% ..Which is funny considering that I AM a Sagittarian !!

I don't understand why people who you've had pleasant conversations with, be it in the elevator or in the cab on the way back from office, refuse to say even a 'Hi', let alone make eye contact when you meet in office the next day. It just shows such lack of character.

Is this the 'done' thing in the corporate world ? Or is it just me ? I wonder...

For my reference - in the future

All of these posts -- by Akkare ( this and this) and , by Me
, this
and desiwitch
and this

and all the comments left -- really got me thinking.
I wanted to keep them all (take printouts and save them, in case the blogs aren't around) so that when I become a mother I know what my kid(s?) would be going through. I think it's so easy to forget these things when you're on the other side.

I've been told plenty of times that I should consider myself especially lucky if I get a job I love and enjoy. In all likelihood, work is most often something you tolerate, something you do because you have to...

But its just so frustrating at times. I don't dislike my job. But the thing is I'm not a particularly passionate person. There is no ONE thing that excites me and drives me. Put me anywhere (well, pretty much) and I'll do a fairly decent job. I may not be passionate or super-intelligent but, to my credit, I am extremely hard-working and that gets me through a lot of things. I feel satisified at the end of a day well-spent , working hard, getting things completed.

Work has started to get more and more unsatisfying. I'm not sure if this is just a phase. I'm not sure if this is because of my current project which makes me want to pull my hair, bite my nails and punch someone. I'm not sure if its because I haven't been working hard enough and hence the feeling of unsatisfaction.
I'm tired of writing codes (when computers are not even my thing), sick of VBAs and Excel macros and numbers and numbers and more numbers. I just want to walk away from it all.

The 'sensible' (rather the conservative, absolutely risk-averse, timid, self-effacing) voice in my head tells me that its just a phase. I'll probably move on to another job and find myself as unhappy at some point. I should just tolerate this and not expect so much. At the same time, I keep wondering , what's the point of studying hard and working hard in school/college when at the end of the day you're stuck in a job that's not really making you happy ?

Is my job supposed to make me happy ? Or should I just tolerate it ? Do most people just tolerate their jobs?

And I just realised that its a Friday and I'm whining.. I've certainly hit rock bottom.

Biology Class

Tenth standard Biology class, post-lunch. No one was in the mood to study and BioThoma was definitely not in the mood to teach. It was noisy and everyone was talking away, with BioThoma occasionally trying to bring some order into class. Suddenly, she calls me to her desk (I think it was because I was talking to a boy sitting next to me) and says to me ,

" If you don't study hard enough, your parents will marry you off... "

Smack across my Face...

I missed the flight home ....

And I had more than my fair share of Vitamin N and lots and lots of beer to drown my sorrows.

Lesson learned - Get your priorities straight. Home and family SHOULD come before cancer-causing addictions.

Vitamin 'N' time

I want a smoke oh-so desperately. Made worse by the fact that its Friday and my nicotine urges kick in especially on Fridays. Even worse , the fact that I won't be smoking for the next 3 days , coz I'm headed home.... And here I am thinking of schemes to get a puff before heading home. Perhaps at the airport - nah, too risky, what if there's someone who knows me? Now? Where ? No time, lots of work to do, can't go for a quick walk..

I go through phases with cigarettes. There are times when I do without them for weeks, even months on end. And then there are days , when I wake up and immediately eagerly await that Ultra Mild at the end of the day. When I'm smoking, I can tell myself , Oh I don't really need this, I can give it up ANYTIME. This is just to distract me from more serious stuff, time pass...' And I do convince myself.

And through all these phases, I never hesitate to point out to my friends that they're smoking way,way too much and that they shouldn't be so dependant on a cigarette ...

Aaaaaaaaaaah, aaaaaaaaaah aaaaaaaaaaaaaah