snooping around

Appa was having trouble accessing his Rediffmail and so he asked me to check it for him and forward any mails from AA. Of course, I did all that. And a littlebittle more. BUT OBVIOUSLY.. COME ON, I JUST HAD TO. ALL THOSE MAILS JUST STARING AT ME...

And this is what AA had written to Appa in one of his mails, around the time I had decided to quit.

"Im praying for her. Im glad that she has made a decision and is still
sane. Normally she goes into depression before and after any decision."

I was really amused when I read this. Depression? Me ? Bright-eyed-bushy-tailed me?

Well, yeah , he is right about the before part. I go into severe depression and moodiness and self-doubt and general existential angst before every decision.
After the decision, I don't really think about it much. The only reason I would get depressed is the thought of all the decisions that await.

Anyway, its very comforting that AA knows me so well. I sometimes wonder if I know him as well. All I know is, he's the bestest brother I could ever have asked for.